Some times you are the weapon formed against yourself !

 Have you ever thought that sometimes we are the weapons formed against ourselves? 

In an imperfect world filled with so much sin and discord there is one thing that we can depend on to make our way to heaven and that is Jesus, his blood that was shed  and his will for our lives; yet still we do what we please out of fleshly decisions and we tend to suffer greatly until we come into the will and alignment of God.

In recent times I was thinking about how badly I had been regressing in my life and I became spiritually desperate. I had went to a party and had gotten black out drunk , not because I was drinking excessively but because i had eaten very little and had drank on an empty stomach, needless to say many things happen when one is black out drunk. I had woken up the morning learned of my sins and was highly embarrased with myself , how could I have been undoing all the positive steps ( towards bettering myself) in one night? Thats when I stumbled upon a previously subscribed youtuber and she mentioned how she too was regressing in her business life and how she knows she's changing but she needed to change course, she mentioned a sermon by Sarah Jakes Roberts ( one of my fav preachers) titled "The Undoing" (i highly recommend, it is a must watch).  Anyways while watching her video a scripture came to mind, Jeremiah 29v19 ' Thine own wickedness shall correct thee, know therefore and see that it is an evil thing and bitter that thou hast foresaken the lord thy God and that my fear is not in thee, saith the lord of hosts'

  Upon reading the verse my mouth fell open, I was never an avid bible reader so its not like I knew the verse previously, God had literally implanted the verse in my head and he was correcting me. And with the swiftness I drew for my journal and asked him what should i do next? and thats when he gave me my first circumcision.

My piercings, something i had fought my parents hard for in my rebellious teen years were now being removed from me one by one, just in the infancy of my twenties. I could not believe it but because the message was so direct and i did not want to end up like Jonah I began to remove them one by one thereafter I started to see my true beauty, I was truly stunned by how different i looked after just removing two piercicngs, my septum and my tongue piercing. 

God knows what he's doing and his time in which he will do it, I had never thought i would take any piercing out infact i had planned on getting more not knowing that a few months later that I'd be removing more than half of them: friends, fellow readers i then noticed how different my peers and others began to treat me and how much more confident I was without those piercings. I wasnt afraid to speak and be judged , I wasnt afraid to remove my masks in business places or visit my moms around her business contacts.

I was the weapon formed againts myself in many areas of my life and i was becoming rebirthed because of the alignment that was happening in my life, but more on alignment soon; here are a few words from Sarah Jakes Roberts "The Undoing":

Starting over is not starting from scratch

What God did is at war with what God is doing ( what you did is at war with what God is doing)

Become sensitive ( spiritually) when starting over 

What was done must become undone so what God is doing can emerge.

   See you next time friends...